I think I have conjured enough courage to face the fact that M is not the one who is meant to be for me. I love her but I guess as everyone puts it, its only attachment. The hope and expectations that I have for our relationship are impractical to a great degree. I want her to be someone she is not. I want her to understand me, and care for what I think and how I feel about things, but it is not part of her personality to be that way. She wants someone who is laid back (takes her inadequacies in relationship and doesn't reciprocate them). I am not that person. So it is a lose lose situation for both of US!
She can't give me what I want and I can't give her what she wants. THEN WHY THE HELL ARE WE STILL "TRYING"?!
Man if this is love, this better be good. Cause I don't want to take this anymore.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Mocking Bird
Mocking Bird (Rob Thomas)
Brilliant!
Emphasize on the line..
"I don't wanna love you now, if you'll leave someday,
I dont wanna turn around, if you'll just walk away"
In my relationship, I have turned around quite a few times, hoping that M will change her ways, however I met disappointment. I was never this person who would look back or reconsider his decisions, but I have made exception for M, it better give me something good.
I don't wanna stay, if i she can't assure the security of being with me for GOOD!
Brilliant song, very relevant and amazing lyrics. LOVE ROB'S MUSIC!
Brilliant!
Emphasize on the line..
"I don't wanna love you now, if you'll leave someday,
I dont wanna turn around, if you'll just walk away"
In my relationship, I have turned around quite a few times, hoping that M will change her ways, however I met disappointment. I was never this person who would look back or reconsider his decisions, but I have made exception for M, it better give me something good.
I don't wanna stay, if i she can't assure the security of being with me for GOOD!
Brilliant song, very relevant and amazing lyrics. LOVE ROB'S MUSIC!
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Precious words!
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"She loves you today, so what else matters"
"She has given you a part of herself that you can break: her heart"
BEAUTIFUL!!
I have believed in this for the longest time and is the probable explanation why I have stuck around M for so long. We have ample of problems in our relation and we still are not where we ought to be, but I feel like (as I always do) we are making progress towards it. I am not sure where this optimistic point of view is going to lead me in the long run. However, I am willing to take the risk, for I believe M to be a beautiful part of my life and I want to give it my all.
"She loves you today, so what else matters"
"She has given you a part of herself that you can break: her heart"
BEAUTIFUL!!
I have believed in this for the longest time and is the probable explanation why I have stuck around M for so long. We have ample of problems in our relation and we still are not where we ought to be, but I feel like (as I always do) we are making progress towards it. I am not sure where this optimistic point of view is going to lead me in the long run. However, I am willing to take the risk, for I believe M to be a beautiful part of my life and I want to give it my all.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Similarities.. Not always pleasant!
A Tree grows in Brooklyn-"'We're too much alike to understand each other because we don't even understand our own selves. Papa and I were two different persons and we understood each other. Mama understands Neeley because he's different from her."
Slightly different than what was between me and M but more or less the same. M and I are similar to a great extent, and I understand how she feel about things. The only problem is, how I should respond to them. When I feel those things, I tell myself to just suck it up, it's life and it's going to be this way. Not the most comforting and kind words that M would ever want to hear. However, I try my level best to comfort her but apparently i am not good enough for her comfort level.
M understands herself pretty well but she fails to apply that understanding to other people. She knows how she feel about things but refuses to believe that other people could possibly feel the same thing as her. It is hardly ever since winter break that i saw her trying to understand my stand point.
Slightly different than what was between me and M but more or less the same. M and I are similar to a great extent, and I understand how she feel about things. The only problem is, how I should respond to them. When I feel those things, I tell myself to just suck it up, it's life and it's going to be this way. Not the most comforting and kind words that M would ever want to hear. However, I try my level best to comfort her but apparently i am not good enough for her comfort level.
M understands herself pretty well but she fails to apply that understanding to other people. She knows how she feel about things but refuses to believe that other people could possibly feel the same thing as her. It is hardly ever since winter break that i saw her trying to understand my stand point.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Positivity of hatred!
Hatred could possibly bring something nice in some peoples life. M and my ex actually bonded over hating me :( .. A strange word and strong emotion it is, yet it is one of the most common words used in today's world
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