This past summer was eventful. Not in terms of things that one plans and lives but rather in terms of situations that one has little control over, situations that come with time and bring along the happiness and misery associated with them.
Started my new job in early June and obviously it was not all rainbows and sunshine that I had hoped it to be. Sometimes I wonder if it is really I who is extremely optimistic about things and expect unrealistically positive outcomes off of a situation or is it more general. The thing is that if a person starts embracing the possibilities of negative outcomes and let them overshadow his/her mindset then there will be a sense of reluctance at performing the task. Hence, they will not be able to give their hundred percent and thus escalating the possibility of negative outcome. It is almost like setting oneself up for failure. Obviously that does not mean that one should make senseless decisions and expect it to workout for the best. It just means that when a venture is undertaken (after extensive deliberation) one should always look on the bright side and hope for the best and leave all the negative "what ifs" to "I hope not".
I have acquired quite extensive knowledge at this recent job. Its a whole new world and a whole new experience. I am not sure if I want to stick around this job for too long though. Its more physically challenging and demanding instead of mental. I feel that longer I stay at this job the smaller box i trap myself into and I will never be able to escape. I guess I am still not ready to settle.
This job brought along great financial security, however now that I have that I am not sure about how to invest and where to go from here. I am so reluctant at even the thought of buying a car let alone the idea of putting my money in stock market. Still an area to grow in and be comfortable.
These days are just full of me holding my breathe and hoping I succeed to a point where I have no doubts about what my future is going to be..
